And this is the story of my life.

LOL FIYAH

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 15:56:51 GMT

Yeah, BIIIG fire over in San Diego right now. I'm not sure if you've heard, my lovely LJ-Friends, but it's been all over the news.

Okay, basically there's about 9 major fires. Nope, 8! Because two just merged together. Fantastic.
Well, anyway, it all started with the Witch Fire, which is not the largest and taking the same path as the Cedar Fire in 2003. Happy Anniversary, by the way. YEAH THANKS.

Anyway, fire info:

Horno Fire

The Horno Fire at Camp Pendleton has burned 6000 acres and is moving north and west between Las Pulgas Road and the Border Patrol Checkpoint. Camp Pendleton requested the closure of train service, and Metrolink has confirmed that service is shut down from Oceanside to San Clemente

Poomacha Fire
Highway 76, Pauma Valley
San Diego County

This fire started October 23 as a structure fire on the Lajolla Indian Reservation. It has burned 20,000 acres and is uncontained. 50 homes have been destroyed and 2,000 homes are threatened. Evacuations are in progress along the Highway 76 cxorridor. The communities of Valley Center, Rincon Hidden Meadows and Deer Springs are threatened. This fire has resulted in 10 firefighter injuries. 218 firefighters are currently assigned to this fire. Poomacha Fire Information Line (619) 590-3160.

Ammo Fire
Camp Pendleton
San Diego County

This fire started at 11:49 a.m. October 23 and has burned 350 acres. Areas 50 and 53 on Camp Pendleton have been evacuated. Ammo Fire Information Line (619) 590-3160.

Wilcox Fire
Camp Pendleton
San Diego County

This 13-acre fire on Camp Pendleton currently threatens 100 residences. Wilcox Fire Information Line (619) 590-3160.

Harris Fire
Harris Ranch Road & Hwy 94
San Diego County

This fire has burned 72,000 acres and is 10 percent contained. The fire started October 22 and is burning at Harris Ranch Road and both sides of Highway 94 in Portrero in San Diego County. There have been 21 civilian injuries and one death as well as five firefighter injuries on this fire. 200 homes have been destroyed in this fire. 2000 homes and 500 commercial properties are threatened currently. 4500 people have been evacuated. The communities of Chula Vista, San Diego, San Miguel, Portrero, Barrett Junction, Barett Lake area, Engineer Springs, Dulzura, Deerhorn Valley, Lawson Valley, Jamul, Lyons Valley and homes along Millar Ranch Road are threatened. 1211 firefighters are assigned under unified command. The estimated cost of this fire to date is $2.1 million. Harris Fire Information Line (619) 590-3160

McCoy Fire
Cleveland National Forest
San Diego County

This fire has burned 300 acres and is 95 percent contained. The fire started October 21 and is burning in the Boulder Creek/Eagle Peak area of San Diego County. One residence and one outbuilding have been destroyed. 49 firefighters are currently on scene. McCoy Fire Information Line (619) 590-3160.

Rice Fire
Rice Canyon
San Diego County

This fire has burned 7,500 acres in Rice Canyon in Northern San Diego County and is 10 percent contained. 206 homes have been destroyed. 1,500 homes are threatened. Evacuations are ongoing in the communities of Fallbrook Rainbow Glen and Deluz Canyon. Camp Pendleton and Oceanside are threatened. One firefighter injury has been reported. 723 firefighters are assigned to this fire under unified command including 387 CAL FIRE staff. Rice Fire Information Line (619) 590-3160.

Rosa Fire
NearTemecula
Riverside County

This fire has burned 100 acres. 100 residences near Temecula are threatened. 192 firefighters are assigned. Roca Fire Information Line (951) 940-6985.

Witch Fire
Witch Creek Area East of Ramona
San Diego County

This fire has burned 196,420 acres and is one percent contained. 500 homes, 100 commercial properties, and 50 outbuildings have been destroyed. 250 homes, 75 commercial properties and 50 outbuildings have been damaged. 5,000 residences, 1,500 commercial properties, and 300 outbuildings are currently threatened. Mandatory evacuations are in place for the communities of Scripps Ranch, Poway, Rancho Bernardo, Valley Center, San Marcos, and Rancho Santa Fe. Twelve firefighters have been injured on this fire. A CAL FIRE Incident Command Team is in command of this incident with 1,492 firefighters assigned. Wildcat Canyon is closed. Highway 67 is closed from Poway to Ramona. Witch Fire Information Line (619) 590-3160.

A lot of evacuations going on STILL, on the fourth day. Even I had to go from my dad's house to my mom's house, because, uhm.

Seeing that much smoke first thing in the morning outside my window isn't the best thing...
But yeah. Last night my dad and I had to keep checking the hills near our house because we could SEE the flames dancing up there. It's very surprising and scary to see how quickly it actually jumps around.

Well, here's a map of my location(s)! :D

Yes, I had fun with PSP8. Shut up.
And despite my light-heartedness this is actually very serious and very concerning and the worrier in me has reached its capacity and promptly fainted last night. Has not revived yet.

I may go volunteer later. It depends on my ride and if I'll even be able to do anything.

My heart goes out to all those who lost homes, a family member, memories and items. You're in my thoughts, and I'll try to do everything I can to help!

Btw, you know life hates you when "Anthem of our Dying Day" (From up here, the city lights burn, like a thousand miles of fire) by Story of the Year comes on and then a song called "Suffocating". -_-

EDIT: LOLZ GUYS BUSH IS COMING DOWN TO SAN DIEGO TOMORROW. MAYBE WE'LL GET OPRAH NEXT!!

Survey.

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 23:41:50 GMT

CHAPTER ONE: INFANCY AND CHILDHOOD
How does your full name appear on your Birth Certificate? Rebecca Elena Goetze.

Were you christened (and at what church)? Baptized at St. John's in Lemon Grove. Whoo, eternal salvation.

What was the date of your birth (your birthday)? August 18, 1991.

How many years, months, and days old are you right now? 16 years, 1 month, 4 days and 22 hours old.

Where were you born? San Diego, California.

Were you born outside of the UK? Uhm. Yes.

Were you the first born? Nope.

What are your racial origins? Irish, German and Mexican.

Were you a healthy baby? Born, yes. But I got sick a lot. Still do.

Was it a natural birth? Yup.

In which Hospital? Kaiser.

Whereabouts in the world? San Diego, CA.

Were you well behaved? Kind of. I was very curious.

How old were you when you first attended school? One.

What was the name of it? Sorento Valley Children's Center.

Who was your first best friend/friends? Rochelle.

Were you a spoiled child? Yes.

What were your favorite games to play? Computer games, pretend.

What were your favorite toys? Barbies.

Were you a mommy's boy/girl or "daddies"? Neither.

Did you get along well with your siblings? Not really.

What was your first pet? Panther.

What did you excel at as a child? Everything.

Were you ever top of the class? Yes.

Were you ever bottom of the class? No.

CHAPTER TWO: SCHOOL LIFE
Which schools did you attend from the age of eleven upwards? Sorento Valley's Children Center, Alcott Elementary, Standley Middle School, University City High School.

How was your school life for you in general? Pretty good.

Would you say you were outgoing or shy? Outgoing.

Did you belong to any particular clique or group? Nearly all of them. I'm very friendly.

Who were your friends? I have a lot.

What did you excel at as you got older? English and History.

What was your favorite year? Eighth.

Are you in education at present? Yes.

Did you belong to any after school clubs? Color Guard, Invisible Children, and apparently I'm one of three presidents of a club. I have no idea which though..

What were your favorite subjects? Guard, English, History.

What were the subject you hated and weren't good at? Math.

Who were your favorite teachers? Juergens!

Did you ever suffer at the hands of bullies? Not the school kind.

If so, who were they, and was it physical or verbal bullying? ...

Did you have enemies in school (and who were they)? None. Oh. Does Connor count? I don't even know why he hates me.

How interested in the opposite/same sex were you? Hm. I'm waiting.

Did you bring food to school or buy it? Bring.

How long was your school day? About 9.

What transport did you use to get to and from school? Parents. And city bus.

If you have left school, how old were you? Nope.

CHAPTER THREE: AS YOU ARE...RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW
As an individual, you are? Tired.

What are your good qualities? I'm kind, brave, intelligent, cheerful and funny.

What are your bad qualities? I'm sarcastic, realistic, intelligent, too kind and insensitive.

Are you a tough cookie, emotionally unstable, or somwhere in-between? Somewher in-between. I ahve my moments of instability.

Do you stand up for yourself in tricky situations? I have to.

When meeting new people, how confident are you? Pretty confident. I'll introduce myself and be friendly and helpful.

What is your self esteem level, rate from 1-10 (10 being highest)? 5. I don't care. Period.

What are your desires and ambitions in life? To make it through and jsut be happy.

What are your talents? Color guard, listening.

What do you want to achieve out of life? Joy.

What do you enjoy doing (hobbies)? Horse-back riding, reading, singing.

Likes? Chocolate.

Dislikes? My parents.

What do you do when bored? Surveys. Read.

What are your bad habits? I bite my lips when I'm stressed.

Where are your favorite places? Seaport Village, the canyon.

CHAPTER FOUR: FRIENDSHIPS
Who are your best friends? Jessie, Shelby, Missa.

Who are your acquaintances? Many.

Who have you kept in contact with through school? A lot of people.

Are you still friends with your childhood friends? Yes.

How easy do you find making new friends? Very.

How often do you do so? Often.

Are you picky and judgmental when it comes to meeting new friends? No.

What do you and your friends do when together? Laugh and live.

CHAPTER FIVE: FAMILY
Who are your proud parents? Fuck you.

Are they married at present? No.

If divorced/seperated, how long for? 10 years.

And how did it affect you and your siblings? My sister still hates me. Let's not talk about me.

What do they do for a living? Engineer, and a notary.

Who do you get along with the best? Neither.

Who do you live with at present? Noth.

Who are your IMMEDIATE family? Missa.

Do you have a close family? Haha.

Who is your favorite member? My grandparents and my uncle Peter and Phillip.

Do you have aunties and uncles? Yes.

Do you have cousins? Many.

Who are your grandparents, and what do they do? Peg and Paul. They're retired.

Who are your siblings and what do they do? Lisa. Don't care anymore. Missa! She's a student in Buisness at CAL POLY. <3

Who do you NOT get along with whatsoever? All of them.

CHAPTER SEVEN: BEAUTY AND STYLE
What kind of figure do you have? Curvy?

Are you comfortable with it (why/why not)? Sure.

What color hair do you have? Brown.

What is the length? Medium?

Do you prefer it long or short? Long.

Is it dyed, or has it ever BEEN dyed? Yes. I had fun.

If so, what is your hair color naturally? Brown.

Do you like your hair? Sometimes. When it behaves.

What styles do you wear it in? A lot of things.

How often do you brush it? Once a day maybe.

What shampoo, conditioners, or other styling products do you use for your hair? Herbal Esscenses. And, uhm, hair spray for shows.

What is your eye color? Grey? I don't know anymore.

Do you ever wear colored contacts? Nope. I wish, though.

If you could have any other eye color, other than your own, what would you have? Violet.

Do you wear or need to wear glasses? Yes.

How strong are your teeth? Not that strong.

How often do you brush them? Twice a day.

Have you ever suffered from bad breath? Probably.

Do you show your teeth when you smile? I have to.

Do you like your smile? No.

What is your favorite feature on your face and for what reason? Mmrh. I guess my eyes. Everyone likes them.

What are your distingusing features? My eyes.

Do you ever worry about how big your ears or nose/are is? Nah. I don't care.

What size are your feet? 7.

Do you have any double jointed limbs? Nope. But I can bend my thumb behind my hand!

Do you wear colored nail polish (what colors)? No. Just clear.

If a girl, what color eye shadow do you wear? Whatever people make me wear.

What other make up do you wear? Eye liner, usually. Just brown, though.

How do you dress? Comfortably.

What do you wear on a regular basis? Clothes?

What jewelery do you wear on a regular basis? Pinky ring from my grandma and a braclet from Shelby.

Necklaces? Yes.

Bracelets? Yes.

Earrings? Sometimes.

Rings? Yes.

Do you prefer gold or silver jewellery? Silver.

What kind of underwear do you wear? Uhm. Comfy kinds?

Where do you buy your clothes and underwear? Everywhere.

What shoes do you wear? Vans.

How many pairs do you own? Idk.

CHAPTER EIGHT: YOUR ENVIRONMENT
Whereabouts are you in the world right now? El Ca-fucking-jon.

On what street/road do you live on? El Monte.

Do you live a house/bungalow/flat/etc? House.

How old is your home? Don't have a home.

How long have you lived there? Dad's house? ...Maybe...4 years?

Describe your living arrangements? Awkward.

Describe your bedroom? Blue.

CHAPTER NINE: ENTERTAINMENT
TELEVISION
How regularly do you watch TV? AVATAR. And whatever else is on when I'm bored.

Do you have sky/cable? Cable.

How many Television sets are there in your house? Two.

DVD players and VCRs? Three.

What channels do you watch? Disney, Nick, MTV, VH1, Bravo, CW, History, Discovery, USA.

What are your favorite TV shows? AVATAR, Will and Grace, Psych, I lvoe The 80's/90's, Best Week Ever.

Do you enjoy reality TV? No.

MOVIES
The expected question, what are your favorite movies? The Princess Bride.

What genre do you generally watch? Comedy, romance, fantasy, adventure.

Why do you enjoy these? Because I do.

What don't you watch? Action.

Worst movie ever seen? The Animal.

Actors? Cary Elwes.

Actresses? Idk.

How regularly do you visit the cinema? Not as often as I used to.

What did you last see there? Balls of Fury.

What were the last five DVDs you bought? No se.

What was the last DVD you watched? Family Guy.

How many DVDs do you have in your collection? Idk.

Do you organize them in any particular fashion? Nope.

Are your DVDs mostly horror, fantasy, thriller, action, sci-fi, comedy, rom-coms, epic/historical, or TV stuff, etc.? ...Yes.

MUSIC
What does your music collection generally consist of? Alternative, Classical, Rock, Pop, and punk.

What genres do you prefer to listen to the most? Alternative.

What genres will you NOT listen to, and why? Gospel, for obvious reasons.

Who is your ultimate favorite band, if you had to pick one? Mae.

Who are your other favorites? Daphne Loves Derby, The Rocket Summer.

Who is your favorite music album? The Everglow by Mae.

What are your favorite songs? Gravity by Maaya Sakamoto.

What were the last five CDs you bought? Singularity by Mae. Let Love in by The Goo Goo Dolls...and something else.

CHAPTER TEN: BOOKS AND LITERATURE
How often do you read? Too often for some.

What are your preferred genres? Fiction. Histroric, realistic, etc.

What book are you reading at present? Siddhartha.

Is it enjoyable? It's...enlightening.

What were the last five books you bought? I haven't been in a while. :(

What was the last book you read in full and enjoyed? Jinx.

What was it about? A girl who was in denial about being a witch.

What are your favorite books? Anything by Tamora Pierce, Stephanie Meyer or Meg Cabot. The Princess Bride. Harry Potter. Many more, I'm sure.

Do you prefer to read fiction or non-fiction? Fiction.

If you were to head into a bookshop with the intention of buying a non-fiction book, what subject would you choose? Elizabeth I.

Who are your favorite authors? See above.

CHAPTER ELEVEN: ALCOHOL, DRUGS, AND SMOKING
The obvious questions:
Do you drink alcohol? No.

Do you do drugs? No.

Do you smoke? No.

How often do you drink?
And where?

Have you ever done drugs before?

What are your opinions on these three topics? Stupid. And they just make humanity even more stupid.

Have you ever smoked before? No.

Did you enjoy it?

Have you ever gotten drunk? No.

What has been your worst drunken expierence?

Do you enjoy getting drunk on a regular basis?

CHAPTER TWELVE: FOOD AND DRINK
How much do you enjoy food? I'm pretty gluttonous.

Do you eat all three meals of the day? No.

What is your favorite? Dinner.

What is your favorite dinner? Meaaaaat.

Lunch? Idk.

Breakfast? No.

Snacks? Avacados and chips.

Chocolate brand? Lindt.

Take out food? idk.

Ethnic food? Mexican.

Restaurant? Sammy's.

Ice cream flavor? Chocolate.

Milkshake flavor? Chocolate.

Salad? Caeser.

Vegetable? Potatoes.

Fruit? Strawberries.

Dairy product? Chocolate.

Meat? BEEF.

What are your favorite drinks? Cane Cola.

Do you drink tea or coffee? Chai tea.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN: RELIGION
Do you follow any specific religion? Chocolatism.

Were you brought up to? Nope.

If not, what are your views on religion? Silly and hopeful dreams to have answers for everything.

How skeptical are you? Extremely.

Do you believe that Jesus existed? Maybe.

Do you believe that God exists? No.

When was the last time you attended church? Nope.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN: OTHER PERSONAL BELIEFS
What do you think about Gay marriages? Whatever.

About Homosexual activity? Whatever.

About Bisexuality? Whatever.

About Abortion? No.

Could you live without meat? NO.

Are you a vegetarian? GOOD GODDESS NO.

What couldn't you live without? Chocolate, music, friends.

What do you think about labels (and not the soup can kind)? Retarded.

What do you think about the supernatural? Amusing.

Do you believe in ghosts? Somewhat.

Have you ever experienced paranormal activity? Yes.

What do you think about life on other planets? Doubt.

Politics? Boring.

Mainstream music? It appeals to everyone.

CHAPTER FIFTEEN: ANIMALS AND PETS
Do you have a pet? Yes!

If so, what is their name/s? Ashely, Gerry, Chelsie, Princess, Shadow and Shade.

What animal are they? Dogs and cats.

What breed? Many.

Are you an animal person? Yes.

Are you affecitonate towards them? Of course.

What are your favorite animals to keep as pets? Horses.

What are your favorite wild animals? Horses.

Have you ever been bitten by an animal? Many times.

WHUT?

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 22:37:23 GMT

*panics*
My dad wants me to spend time with my step-family on Saturday, by going to the zoo. I haven't even seen them in about 3 years. And I'd meet my step-nieces/nephews. Yeah, apparently Vanessa had another kid. And Jared...well, he was the only brother I've actually ever had. Gah. I just get so nervous when I'm around them. I feel guilty, because it's like my dad made Carrie kick them out of the house to make room for me and him. And I don't know how they feel about me. It's scary. D: I don't know what to do. Should I go? I do miss Jared...but I'd feel so awkward. BAH.

...Anyway...

Oowww! I'm so out of shape! My forearms are killing me, and it's only been 3 days of Guard practice! I can barely do a single. I feel so lame. hahaha. Oh, well, I'll just have to stretch my arms more. But the new work looks soooo awesome. I'll have to get a video of it soon. And I like my toss in the "fast" work. It goes niiice and hiiigh. ~~(like Jessie!)~~

Oh. I've been meaning to ask! I need some good OURAN HOST CLUB fanfiction. I haven't been able to find any. D: TwinsxHaruhi or TamakixHaruhi is preferred. :D Thanks!

KH Survey. Thing. +My day! :D

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 00:41:31 GMT

1. Leon.
2. Cloud.
3. Axel.
4. Roxas.
5. Riku.
6. Sora.
7. Demyx.
8. Zexion.
9. Tidus.
10. Selphie.
11. Wakka.
12. Seifer.

You use the numbers. GENIUS.

Have you read a 6/11 fic? Do you want to?
...Er...I haven't. It seems like an interesting idea, though...

Do you think 4 is hot? How hot?
I think Roxas IS SUPER HOT. I'd marry him without knowing him personality jsut so I can look at him hot.
Yeaaah...it's probably wrong to be in love with video game characters. :D

What would happen if 12 got 8 pregnant?
12 would probably deny it. And then 8 would concoct something to stop the baby-making altogether. :D

Can you read any fic(s) about 9?
Yeah. I like Tidus. He's cute. :D

Would 2 and 6 make a good couple?
OMG YES. It's so cute. I prefer LeonxSora, though.

5/9 or 5/10? Why?
Uhm.
NO.

What would happen if 7 walked in on 2 and 12 having sex?
Demyx:...D:!!! *shuts door*
Cloud: ...?
Seifer: Why'd you stop, bitch?

Make up a summary for a 3/10 fic.
...Wha- EWW. :(
She knew in all her novels, love was referred to as a burning, intense flame.
She didn't know that that flame was literal.

Is there any such thing as 1/8 fluff?
Uhm...I highly doubt it, but I bet there's some crackhead crazy enough to do it.

Suggest a title for a 7/12 hurt/comfort fic.
Sorry, noes.

What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4 to deflower 1?
I wouldn't. ~~Because Leon already got deflowered by Cloud!~~ Because Roxas and Leon just doesn't fit. LEONSORA DOES THOUGH. :D

Does anyone on your friends list read 7 slash?
Sadly, no.

Does anyone on your friends list read 3 het?
Not that I know of.

Does anyone on your friends list write or draw 11?
Nope.

Would anyone on your friends list write 2/4/5?
No.
But, plzdo.

What might 10 scream out at a moment of great passion?
BAD IMAGES. D:

If you write a songfic about 8, which song would you choose?
Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. He's emo that way.

If you wrote a 1/6/12 fic, what would the warnings be?
NO SEIFER!
Anyway. Minor and super fluff. haha.

What might a good pick-up line for 2 to use on 10?
"Do you have a map? I got lost in your eyes."

When was the last time you read a fic about 5?
Hmmm. A few days ago, methinks?

What is 6's super-secret kink?
~~Toys.~~

Would 11 shag 9? Drunk or sober?
Maybe. Yes. Sober or Drunk.
Probably drunk first, though.

If 3 and 7 get together, who tops?
Axel.

"One and Nine are in a happy relationship until 9 suddenly runs
off with 4. One, broken-hearted, has a hot one-night stand with 11 and
a brief, unhappy affair with 12, then follows the wise advice of 5 and
finds true love with 3." What title would you give this fic? Name three
people on your friends list who might read it. Name one person who
should write it.
Translation: CRACK.

Title: Follow You Into The Dark.

People who would read it: Pfffft. No one.

People who would write it: Idk.

How would you feel if 7/8 was canon?
I would be one happy fangirl.

Yeah, couldn't help myself. Soriku's just so cuuute.
Anyway. I think I may have tonsillitis. WHICH SUCKS! I rather enjoy having all my body parts still with me, regardless if I need them or not. (No, they aren't getting taken out, I'm just a being a drama queen.)

Learned new work for Guard today. Whooo. The beginning sucks, but the fast part looks sooo cool. And I don't like my toss, but that's just because I can't do it yet. I was the same way with horizontals. haha. Learning 64 counts in one day is NOT. FUN. Let me tell you. I still don't have it down. And the beginning work is ridiculously slow and then it speeds up! Stupid latin music that the band will ultimately ruin...

Uhm. FOUND ULTRA SUPER FUNNY ZUKO VIDEO ON DEVIANTART. it makes me happy beyond belief. And like I should be on acid at a rave. Muhaha.

Gonna go take quizzes now as I'm too lazy to take bus to bookstore. Whee, Eclipse comes out tomorroooow!<3

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 07:06:31 GMT

Oh. My. Gosh.

My tio Bobby's over and he brought 300! Yay! But I just found out that he's a republican who believes in the war in Iraq.

...klfjsdhlkf! He keeps saying things that makes me want to slap his head off. How we should stop them before they come over here. Okay, yeah, but what right do we have to make their decisions for them? Sorry, I don't believe in all that pre-empetive crap.

Garh...but today was pretty chill. Just hung out with Gabe and watched Family Guy, then went to Tea N More and got a buttermilk crepe...<3 Those things are ridiculously good. Ooh and a strawberry snow bubble! Hahaha, I am way too Asian for my own good. Then went to bookstore and got two books. Then watched 300 which was pretty good and only made me laugh a couple of times.

Now I'm reading fanfiction and talking to Sir Blake. I ahve also decided it is impossible to not be happy listening to The Rocket Summer. Bryce's voice is just so...I dunno...cheering. :)

Dr. Finger and Dr. Feel good!

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 00:15:32 GMT

Today was fun! I went to school, slept throguh it since I had nothing else to do, and then hung out with Jessie and Shelby. We went to Del Taco and I got owned my a recycling bin. Yeah. haha. And then I read and they looked through their high school yearbook and Jessie laughed at the retards. Yeah, she's SO nice. hahah.

And now she's telling bad jokes about cheetahs and insisting that they're funny.

...ANYWAAAY.

I took the Daemon quiz at the Golden Compass website and I got a dog. A DOG NAMED ANDREAS. I wanted like a fox or something. D: Ah, well.

And now Jessie's insisting that she didn't make "fun of the retards, then I sound like the bad guy!!" XD

Kay, gonna go eat enchiladas and play Spyrooo!

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 20:07:24 GMT

Whoo! So I got a bunch done today in summer school. All I have left to do is take a quiz and a test and I'm DONE! No more schoolwork. And I have an A!

Yeah. In Summer School. Lame, I know. But anyway...

Today seems like a good day. For one thing, it's overcast. And I got my lab partner to make a facial expression resembling a smile. Let me tell you, that was pretty hard to do in the first place...and I've gone stamp crazy. So far I've been stamped as Roxas, Demyx, and Ravenclaw. Whooo! I shall have to find more...muhahaha...

Sadly, Gabe's being retarded and emo again. I do not understand that boy. One minute he's happy the next he's saying he wants to fling himself off a cliff. Sheesh.It makes me so frustrated, because I don't know what to do to help him! Mrrrh.

So, time to be a stamp whore again! Whee!

I know you, I've walked with you...

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 16:52:08 GMT

That was the most beautiful dream...
I dreamed I was loved. That someone sent me a package explaining why I hadn't seen them in a while, knowing that I was upset. In that package were riddles with each item. The first was a book, and it was about how Woman work. He said that there was one part the said some woman put up walls. He said that it seemed that I was because I was afraid of getting hurt. He then said that I shouldn't worry, because he would never hurt me...a few packages later, there was many sheets of origami and he said that he hoped his 1,000 crane wishes came true. And one more was a Goo Goo Dolls cd I didn't have and a Goo Goo Dolls singing card where he told jokes and most importantly the last thing...a chocolate rose and a love letter, explaining that he would take care of me and that he loved me and he hoped that I loved him. I started crying where i read it, went to show my mom and she pointed to the penguin who delivered it and said I should reply.

And then I woke up.

But gods, how I wish I could have someone like him. It broke my heart to wake up.

Writer's Block: Bump In The Night

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 05:58:01 GMT

What are you afraid of?

I am desperately afraid falling and the resulting impact. In the sense of emotionally and physically. I don't like being hurt. it's happened too many times before now, what should make it stop? What if I fall in love, and then I get my heart broken again? What if he end sup like my family, exactly like my family? I couldn't handle. This is one "what if" I don't have the courage to explore.

Teenage Mutant Ninja Iroh? :o

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 05:10:24 GMT

SO, I found out that Mako (may he rest in peace<3) voiced a character in TMNT! xD BUt I'm not sure who. I think it might be a baddie though.

It'll be interesting to hear Uncle Iroh in there. Hahaha.

MY OTP DRABBLENESSS.

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 01:33:19 GMT

Here's my table for drabblenessness for RavenxAqualad. Yayz. I'll update and stuff when my claim is approved. *thumbs up*

001.	OTP	002.	Couple	003.	Cry	004.	Laugh	005.	Anger
006.	Control	007.	Trouble	008.	Cops	009.	Hospital	010.	Sickness
011.	Blue	012.	Red	013.	Black	014.	White	015.	Colors
016.	Food	017.	Pizza	018.	Taco	019.	Toast	020.	Cookie
021.	Soda	022.	Beer	023.	Drunk	024.	Wine	025.	Party
026.	Parents	027.	Aunt	028.	Uncle	029.	Brother	030.	Sister
031.	Car	032.	Motorcycle	033.	Truck	034.	Mini Van	035.	Hummer
036.	Flower	037.	Tree	038.	Seed	039.	Catcus	040.	Root
041.	Bird	042.	Cat	043.	Dog	044.	Fish	045.	Fly
046.	Hunting	047.	Fishing	048.	Baseball	049.	Soccerr	050.	Hockey
051.	Water	052.	Fire	053.	Earth	054.	Air	055.	Storm
056.	Friends	057.	Ex-Friends	058.	Enemies	059.	Lovers	060.	Ex-Lover
061.	Snow	062.	Rain	063.	Heat	064.	Fall	065.	Hope
066.	Necklace	067.	Ring	068.	Watch	069.	Ear Ring	070.	Bracelet
071.	Time	072.	Minute	073.	Hour	074.	Second	075.	Day
076.	Death	077.	Life	078.	Rebirth	079.	Heal	080.	Curse
081.	Concert	082.	Singer	083.	Actor	084.	Writer	085.	Read
086.	King	087.	Queen	088.	President	089.	She	090.	He
091.	Birthday	092.	Christmas	093.	Thanksgiving	094.	Halloween	095.	New Year
096.	Writer‘s Choice	097.	Writer‘s Choice	098.	Writer‘s Choice	099.	Writer‘s Choice	100.	Writer‘s Choice

hides from Brad Pitt

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 20:01:31 GMT

Okay, it stared off as me, Judy and Stormy going through this Egyptian themed maze/tomb thingy, where we had to collect like cereal treasure. Don't ask. Me and Judy were FREAKING out because of the mummies freaking popping out everywhere, but Stormy was more into the treasure. Anyways we get out onto Alcott's auditorium for some reason and Mrs. Juergens is doing a play on the stage, and she shushes us and tells us to go sit down. So we do, but at seperate places. I don't know where they go, but I sit on the side of the stage. I turn to my left and there's Chris Groesbeck. We talk for a little and arrange to have lunch on Saturday to catch up. The play finishes and then Ms. Juergens yells at us to go sit in the seats, and suddenly I'm in the Standley auditorium sitting next to Shelby and Jessica. She gives us each $20 and makes us go outside. We do, and there's the Del Mar Fair. But on the ground is the map of the US we had on the blacktop of Alcott. So me, Shelby and Jessica decide to play! But we can't because Jessica's wearing this deep blue prom dress. So we get something to eat, I look around for a while and don't find anything I want so I come back and see Jessie has Carne Asada fries. I jack some, and Ann from A Great And Terrible Beauty asks if she can have some. Jessie says no. So then I get four Chinese douhgnuts, but decide I only want one. So I give one to each Shelby and Jessica. I still have two left, and Ann's looking at me pleadingly. I give it to her, and decide to look for orange chicken. I eat the doughnut on the way and then find a chinese restaraunt. So I "YAY ORANGE CHICKEEEN" and I go in. So I go in, and look to see if they have it. I'm not sure, so I go to the register and Cid is there asking what I want. I asked if they had orange chicken, but he says he can't hear me. This goes on for a while, until a girl that loks a lot like Tifa comes over and asks what I want, a cute guy with dark brown hair styled like Patrick's is and he has sky blue eyes. I tell her orange chicken, and guy (His name starts with a D, so I'll call him D.) gives me an extra large soda, sayintg I'll need it and smiling at me. I blink and fill it up with coke and then I go outside to wait. And then I see my mom. I push her on the Spiderman ride, telling her it's a 3D thing, but it's really a roller coaster and I push her on it. I stand next to the part that comes out side near the ground, and watch. D comes out and stands next to me for a while. I wave and he nods and we wait until the roller coaster comes down, with mom screaming "OMFGOMFG GET ME OFF I HATE ROLLAR COASTERS MOOOMMMMMMYYYY!!!!!" I laugh and D kinda grins, and tells me my order's ready. So we go in, and tango music's playing and he grabs both my hands and start tangoing. I put one hand on his shoulder instead, and he wraps his arm around my waist, and we continue tangoing. Then it ends, we laugh and the resturaunt people applaude us, we bow, but D hoists me on his shoulder and I laugh. And then I get my orange chicken which is terrible, then mom comes and drags me away, but I give D my number. YAY. Haha. Anyway...mom goes somewhere, and I have to look for her and all of a sudden I'm in at Quincy's marketplace. So I go looking for her and I go to look in Best Buy for some reason. And there was Brad Pitt reenacting a scene from Troy for the audience dressed up as Medieval knights in armor and all. And then this girl in pink armor throws a dagger at Brad but misses. Brad goes CRAZY and starts chasing her around trying to kill her.

And then I woke up. My icon says a lot...

Persuaded yet?

Sat, 20 May 2006 19:10:02 GMT

Good morning! My name is Rebecca Goetze. I am very proud to be here in order to have the chance to present my exhibition and to demonstrate my ability to research and argue an important issue.

In our English class, we have been examining and discussing the American identity and voice through the literature we have read and analyzed. As an extension of our class studies, I have chosen to present my views on the important topic of divorce which relates to the American identity and voice because divorce affects not only the two individuals getting a legal separation, but also those surrounding them. Divorce is the process of a married couple who no longer wish to be together. Divorce has become more and more common as social and religious beliefs have died down. There are many reasons for divorce. Some are justified and for the best. However, divorce often hurts more people than it helps. Families are broken apart and friends are confused as to who to support. Even one person in the couple could disagree to divorce, but sometimes it’s the only answer. Sadly, couples often rush towards divorce before even trying to divorce before even trying to work things out. This is a grave mistake. Family is one of the concepts America was built upon. For example, in the novel April Morning by Howard Fast, the main character Adam would not have gone to fight without wanting to prove to his father his courage. He wanted his father to love and approve of him. Had his family been separated, Adam might have cared less about what his parents thought and tried more to do of what he wanted for himself. Divorce should be the last resort, lest our country become a land of broken families and broken hearts.

There are some cases where divorce helps everyone, but not many. One example would be an abusive husband that mistreats his family. The wife wants out of the marriage and to take her children with her, to keep themselves safe from violence. Nevertheless, if the husband is able to be rationalized with, I feel the couple should go into counseling. Things might be resolved and the family could look into recovering. However, should the husband continue with the abuse, divorce would be the only chance for the family to escape and live happily. Another case would be where a couple fell out of love, or absolutely couldn’t stand each other. Again, I would recommend the pair try to work things out as well as possible, but I know that you couldn’t ever force two people to love each other. If they feel divorce is the only option left, they should go for it. On the other hand, if the couple has children, they should try to stay together. It’s not fair for the children to have to watch their family spilt apart simply because “mommy and daddy don’t love each other anymore”. Families are what help the children grow into adults. They love, give each other care and help shape their ideas and concepts of the world. But if a family splits, their whole world is turned upside down and they begin hearing two different things from their separated parents. They didn’t ask for the love to fade away. Some ways to prevent this from occurring is for the couple to make sure they are in love, committed and ready before having children. That way, if they fall out of love they won’t have to worry about hurting anyone else.

Divorce should be the last option considered, after going through many processes and trying their best to solve their differences. From a child’s point of view, divorce is horrible. One moment they are all one big happy family, the next moment dad’s going away and they find themselves with two houses, two rooms and sometimes even two lives. What’s worse is sometimes the parents absolutely hate each other. Some kids are lucky; the divorce is calm and the parents are still friends. But the others, their parents fight over the kid, money, property, the past and anything else in-between. Then, the parents start using the child. They use him to get money, to get the other parent to cooperate. This isn’t fair to the child! The child gets used just because the parents fell out of love and now hate each other. Children are one reason why divorce should be considered last. The couple should try to stay together for the child, for their sake. No one wants bitter feelings in the family.

Divorce is a way to get rid of problems that two people cannot sole together. It shouldn’t be a way to escape the issues without trying to figure them out. Commitment is serious and should not be taken lightly, in the same way as raising children. One would need to be responsible and realistic about the idea of marriage and children. Not just anyone can hold a relationship, and that is understandable. Today’s marriages reflect the fast-paced world of today. People get married for the sake of marriage; they think it’s what they need to complete their life. People need to slow down, smells the roses around them, and find someone they’ll be able to love for years to come.

Yes? No? Maybe so?

Geh.

Mon, 15 May 2006 13:07:01 GMT

Stupid early shower things.

Ah, I clearly remember the first thing I thought as my alarm went off.

'Gah! Stupid English phones...'

Yes, I thought my alarm was an English telephone. So, I was dreaming I was a delivery girl in London. Yeah...

Alright, more later. I'm sure my day will be interesting.

Again, with the poetry.

Thu, 11 May 2006 02:28:17 GMT

But, see, this one is actually for Englsih. SO HAH EMOTIONS! TAKE THAT!

It's for The Red Badge of Courage. That's why if you haven't read it and you're like 'WTF MATE!?', that's why. XD

My dear, sweet child
The light in my darkness
I watched you grow
From an oblivious babe-
to a carefree child-
into a strong-willed young man
Trying to break free of his cage
to go out into the world and be recognized

My dear, sweet child
Grown so much, yet still so naïve
Do you realize the impact of what you have done?
As you signed that book, I’m sure you felt pride,
but did you forget that it s one of the seven deadly sins?
You’ve signed your soul away
in exchange for glory and splendor
But don’t you realize
that things are never that simple?

My dear, sweet child
Oh so young and restless!
How ignorant you are of what lies ahead of you
You are not known for your aggressiveness
I fear for you so
Have you truly thought this through?
Did you think of the long weary marches?
No, you saw the pretty girls throw flowers
and cheers supporting you, hoping for your victory
Did you think of the wounds you give?
The men, dying around you?
No, you saw the proud faces, the eager faces
of those looking at a hero
Did you think of the wounds you would receive?
Of the pain and suffering?
No, you saw your chance to prove yourself a victor, an idol.
But I fear you will only be labeled as a martyr.

My dear, sweet child
the love of my life
I pray for your well-being
I worry you will not be able to handle the increasing hostilities
You are a newborn chick
ready to get out of the nest
to learn how to fly
But as you make your first attempts at flying
will a hawk discover you?
Or will you dive into the ground,
losing the wing beneath your wings?

My dear, sweet child
My sun, my moon, my stars
Will you be able to take a away so easily?
I raised you to be compassionate
but will your passion for pride overtake my teachings?
I pray you will be strong
and you won’t break down
when you see the cold, broken eyes of your fallen comrades
I wish you will be capable of continuing where they left off
If not for yourself
then for their sake

My dear, sweet child
The rose among thorns
I pray this cruel war will be over soon
I am not sure my poor heart can take anymore
of not knowing how you are
where you are
or even if you’re still breathing
What concerns me so
is that you may die in vain
for I know this is what you fear
Though it pains me to pen this down
if you must die, I hope you die fighting
proving your courage to those around you.

My dear, sweet child
No, no more a child
A man, hardened by war
I know our parting was bittersweet and abrupt
But it was all I could do to keep from begging you to stay
I still have that motherly instinct
to protect and pamper you
I know now, that I had to let you go
Things are best learned when experienced firsthand
So, I pray to the Lord above
that you will come home
safe and sound
My dear, sweet man

Poetic liscense.

Mon, 08 May 2006 23:28:32 GMT

SANCTUARY
Hoping.
For a chance to meet you.
For the light to shine through the darkness.
For this pointless war to be over.
For warm arms to finally welcome me.
For my sanctuary.

Wishing.
That this blindfold will come off.
That this dizzying twilight will never end.
That everyone could truly feel.
That some things really were that simple.
For my sanctuary.

Watching.
The leaves separate from the trees.
Your eyes watching me.
The rain, sliding down the window pane.
The waves, slowly returning back to their home.
My sanctuary.

Waiting.
For the door to open, revealing a new adventure.
For the bright light to break through the barriers around hearts.
For the wildflowers to open themselves to the world.
For this hunger satiated.
For my sanctuary.

Crying.
For the innocence lost.
For the lives forever gone due to malicious intent.
For the blood-relatives who could never be called family.
For your unnessecary suffering.
For my sanctuary,

Smiling.
At the friends who never fail to keep me laughing.
At you, my eternal light, never to be snuffed out.
For the futures of the young ones happily running about.
At the sky stretching on overhead.
At my sanctuary.

Loving.
The sound of laughter echoing all around.
The sight of the stars twinkling overhead.
The warmth in your eyes, after we exchange those three special words.
The forget-me-nots dancing in the wind.
My sanctuary.

Finally.
You turn to me.
And you hope.
You wish.
You watch.
You wait.
You cry.
You smile.
You love.
Then, you take my hand and lead me home.
To our sanctuary.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 19:09:55 GMT

I just had the most awesome dream.

I was in that mall back in D.C. and all of a sudden I saw UTADA HIKARU.

Me: *jaw drop* OMFG!!

Everyone: Eh?

Me: UTADA HIKARU! *fangirl scream and rushes over to meet her*

Everyone:...*used to her behavior, shrug and go to get food*

So, I meet her and then I see GERARD WAY next to her! *insert more fangirl screams*

And then I woke up just as he was smiling at me. *sobs*

Riiikuuuu.

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 23:31:38 GMT

Which Riku Are You? (Kingdom Hearts)

You're... Riku. Confident, strong, cocky, attractive, cool... you're the real Riku, THE Riku, the one to be admired and pitied and hated all at once. You're fascinating because you're a normal person and not just one aspect of yourself. Full of surprises, and yet predictable at the same time. You're very cool, and don't worry-- there IS the occasional fangirl that DOES love you for you. ^_~
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I love Riku. hee.

Oooo.

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 04:56:51 GMT

the Helper
Test finished!

you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO.

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's
needs.

How to Get Along with Me

Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.

Share fun times with me.

Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus
on yours.

Let me know that I am important and special to you.

Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships

Reassure me that I am intersting to you.

Reassure me often that you love me.

Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Two

being able to relate easily to people and to make friends

knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better

being generous, caring, and warm

being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings

being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a Two

not being able to say no

having low self-esteem

feeling drained from overdoing for others

not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish

criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should

being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to
them

working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real
feelings

Twos as Children Often

are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism

try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding

are outwardly compliant

are popular or try to be popular with other children

act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention

are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy
(the more introverted Twos)

Twos as Parents

are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm
and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)

are often playful with their children

wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?"

"Have I caused irreparable damage?"

can become fiercely protective

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

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You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose CX

Would you rather have chosen:

AX (SEVEN)

BX (NINE)

CY (SIX)

CZ (ONE)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 0% on ABC
You scored higher than 31% on XYZ

Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Quizzes.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 23:08:24 GMT

Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,

powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,

being fire you are quite strong and powerful

be it mentally, physically or both. People

look up to you greatly and often seek your

protection. You have the ability to gain many

friends and you are always one people can

count on to do what you say you will do. You

are extremely loyal, be it friends or family

you'll stick up for them and you are never

willing to put them in a position that could

hurt them. You know what roll you play in

life, leader, and you intend to let people

know it. Not everyone is capable of

leadership but you certainly have the

willpower and flare to do it. You have quite

a temper if it shows itself, one that can

often lead you into trouble. Once your mind

is made up there is no changing it but no one

said that was a bad thing.

.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Eh. True enough, I suppose.

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be

poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and

creativity, and usually are highly

intelligent. Others view you as mysterious

and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm

in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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But, but, but! I'm NOT artistic! At all! T-T

Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most

of them go, are all compatabile creatures,

but Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure

Angels always appear when a child is born,

when a rainbow is seen, or when someone

shares their first kiss. They never grow old,

an can appear in the shape of a naked woman

with white, bold wings. Pure angels are the

carriers of god, and show their love to

everyone in the world.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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...That doesn't really sound like me...and no comments from the peanut gallery, please. :D

August

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave

and fearless.Firm and has leadership

qualities. Knows how to console others. Too

generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of

oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary

spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked.

Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and

cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent

thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves

to dream. Talented in the arts, music and

defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor

resistance against illnesses. Learns to

relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and

caring. Loves to make friends .

What Does Your Birth Month Reveal About You?
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Now, that's more like it.

Off to read fanfiction! Ta!

Borrredommm.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 22:47:11 GMT

Hmmm.
I'm bored.
And sick.
Funfunfun.

Not.

I hate being sick. being weak and stuff really sucks. But the good thing is that my medicene is working! YAY medicene! That stupid pill I took didn't do anything except make dizzy and walk around like a was drunk. Whoo.
Now, I'm just waiting for my friends to get out of school so I can call 'em and bug 'em! Now that's some good fun.
...Only 45 more minutes to go!

So, maybe I'll take some quizzes and stick 'em on here.

Now there's an idea. Off to take quizzes!

For Jessie!

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 00:45:20 GMT

As he stood before the likeness of the Headmaster who had long had such an impact on his life, Harry felt a cautious surge of hope. The portrait was slumbering, the long silver beard rippling with the passage of gentle snores.

“Professor Dumbledore?” he inquired softly.

The likeness made a slight grumbling noise and seemed to stir.

“Harry,” came the voice he knew so well, however rusty and unused, “considering what has come to pass between us, I rather think you can call me Albus.” And the painted blue eyes opened behind their painted-on glasses and still, somehow, managed to twinkle.

Harry stood still, immobilized yet breathing heavily, overcome with the surge of emotion the words invoked. He was vaguely aware of Hermione, Ron and McGonagall drawing closer behind him.

“Why?” he asked, the words that had been echoing through him ever since that night on the tower. “You said I could help. You brought me to help…”

“And so you did, Harry,” intoned the portrait gently. “I never could have finished that potion on my own. Only my truest, most loyal friend could have completed that bit of magic. Remember that.”

“You finally brought me with you so that I could kill you?” Harry asked brokenly.

“You did not kill me, as I believe you know only too well. You helped me complete a complex and quite dangerous task that served as a culmination of a long and full life replete with similar risks.”

“It wasn't even real, what we found. It had already been stolen and a fake left in its place.”

“I knew,” said the portrait. “It was too small and light. Have you discovered yet what happened to the real one?”

“There was a note in the one in your pocket signed R.A.B. Hermione figured out that it was Sirius' younger brother, Regulus, the one who was a Death Eater. He'd changed his mind about Voldemort and stolen it and hidden it in Grimmauld Place before he died. It turned out to be one of the things Sirius tried to throw out when we cleaning up for Mrs. Weasley in the drawing room.”

“Dear Molly. No idle hands for her. She meant to keep you children busy and your mind off the business of the Order, but she obviously succeeded in doing much more. But it is lost, then?”

“No. It turns out Kreacher kept it. Hermione gave him a Christmas present that year and when we put it in his little hide-out in the boiler closet we saw all this shiny stuff and family pictures that he'd grubbed out of the trash. She thought of it as we were sitting in the kitchen, and there it was.”

The blue eyes gleamed, Harry reckoned even allowing for the magic of wizarding portraits that Dumbledore's painter had been quite good. “Have you destroyed it?”

“No,” said Harry. “We, er… haven't exactly tried yet. We weren't sure what to do and your hand…”

“Quite a disincentive, that. It was really rather nice to be done with that in the end. But I rather think the effect may be different for you.”

Hermione spoke up. “Professor Dumbledore, why should it be different for Harry?”

“Ah Hermione. And Ron. You, too may call me Albus, of course.” Dumbledore's likeness smiled at them both. “I have had some time to ponder the issues that were absorbing my true consciousness when I… moved on, and have some new hypotheses that may or may not be of use to you. It will be up to you now which if any you pursue.”

The painted eyes shifted to Harry and took on a more serious look, “I must confess that I found myself impressed with you, Harry, after I, er… charred the dickens out of my hand destroying the soul fragment within the ring. It came to me that you managed to put the diary out of commission quite without similar damage. I was feeling a good bit old and slow until my magnificent ego came to my aid and convinced me it was something to do with you instead.”

Harry felt a grin almost reach his face.

“I began to wonder, Harry, if I was quite right about the identity of the seven horcruxes when I last spoke with you.”

The grin died. “I've thought about that as well,” he said, his eyes shifting nervously to Professor McGonagall.

“Fear not. Minerva knows all and I have duly received my earful.”

Professor McGonagall snorted. “I'm not done with you yet, Albus. You'll find that Wizengamot portrait quite appealing before I'm through. Of all the…”

The portrait quickly cleared its throat and raised its voice. “As I was saying, I've had a bit of time to reflect on the horcruxes and have come to a somewhat different conclusion based on those thoughts and recollections. We agree, I think, that there will be seven, based on Tom's questioning of Professor Slughorn and his love of myth and mysticism. Always looking for an edge in any game, Tom Riddle. Never forget the boy you saw in that orphanage, Harry, because he lurks in Voldemort still.

If there are in fact seven fragments, we know that two are surely destroyed; the diary by you, Harry, and the ring by myself. That leaves the Slytherin locket, which you have, the Hufflepuff cup, which we at least know Tom coveted and probably killed for, something of Rowena Ravenclaw's, which we only suspect. There must therefore be two more soul fragments. One of course is in Tom Riddle himself, it is the bit that tied him to this earth when the killing curse he used upon your mother reverberated on himself.”

“You mean me. The killing curse he used on me,” Harry said distractedly.

“No, Harry. Or maybe. I can not theorize exactly how it worked, but then neither can Voldemort and he was a participant, there for it all. But I believe I may have been wrong all those years about the magic of Lily's love for you. Of course it was an act so profound as to become magic, giving up her life for her child. But knowing Lily as I did, I began to wonder if it might not be something more.”

Harry's mind had wandered down these same lines but along a much more disorganized path; suddenly the way was cleared. “It was. The Dementors made me remember what he said to her, how he told her to step aside. I told Ron and Hermione that I thought he wanted her to watch; he wanted her to have to see what he was going to use my death to do, as a sort of last laugh at the prophecy. But if she threw herself in front of the killing curse meant for me…”

“The true beauty of her selfless love for you collided with the depthless evil Voldemort was trying to force her to comprehend for the pleasure of his own immortality. If he had just gotten on with it, it might have worked the way he meant, but in the manner of all tyrants he had to have his private little joust with goodness. As it were, I believe that the killing curse claimed both your mother and Voldemort that night; Lily's gift of her own life for yours was accepted by the light of the world and the force of the curse was mirrored back upon its castor.”

“But what happened to Harry, then?” Ron asked suddenly. “Where'd the scar come from?”

“Voldemort had prepared for him to die in order to make a horcrux, I am guessing he had some significant item there which was to receive the last torn portion of his soul. Alas, when things went awry, he most likely dropped the object; it was certainly not foremost on his mind. The thing he was focused on the moment he killed your mother, Harry, was you. And so you are, by accident I am quite sure, Lord Voldemort's final horcrux. The unusual powers, the parseltongue, the uncomfortable connection you have shared are due to the fragments of Voldemort's soul that reside within you.”

“Fragment,” corrected Hermione automatically.

“Alas not, Hermione,” the portrait replied. “I believe the increasing encroachment of Voldemort through Harry's scar is two-fold. When Harry destroyed the diary in the Chamber there was no backlash against him because the fragment of Tom's soul that resided in it simply joined its fellow in Harry. When a horcrux is released it seeks to reunite itself with its former whole; that is its purpose after all. To hold the soul to earth in its search for unity. It can not move on in its fragmented form. Harry therefore now bears two-sevenths of Voldemort's soul. This is important, because it already violates one condition of the prophecy to which he clings as if it is some eternal truth.

Voldemort marked Harry as his equal by infusing him with a seventh of his soul. Voldemort himself had only a seventh left, and so they were indeed equal. After Harry destroyed the diary, he actually became more powerful than Voldemort could ever have predicted. Except Voldemort still didn't know. Because, you see, he never knew what happened that night. He had no idea what he had done to Harry, he only knew that his other horcruxes had worked to keep him from dying. He was still bitterly angry, however, and ever more determined to kill Harry. When he had still failed by your fourth year he knew there was something special about Harry, but he fell for my first theory that it was Harry's mother's blood that protected him and settled for stealing Harry's blood to incorporate in his new body, never realizing that two sevenths of his former soul resided in Harry as well. He thought he'd triumphed when he could touch you at last, but the hand that rested on your face was only inches from something he in actuality wanted so much more. And he never suspected. Imagine how surprised he was, Harry, when you dueled and your strength bested his when your wands locked. He must have known there was still something about you then.

Your fifth year was a difficult one for us all. I realized that it was only a matter of time before Voldemort began to understand the true implications of your connection, Harry. That is why I began to stay away from you when I could and why I asked Professor Snape to teach you Occlumency instead of myself. I wanted to keep the knowledge from you both; as long as Voldemort was still seeking answers about your strength in the prophecy he might take longer to stumble onto the truth. I confessed to you at the end of that year my weakness Harry, how I kept the truth from you so long because I had become too fond of you to wish to place this burden on you. Even then I kept one, small piece of information I suspected back; I wished to give you time yet to strengthen your own untarnished soul. You have carried a deep blackness within you, and yet you have not shown even the slightest sign of succumbing to it; you share some of his powers without the darkness that engulfs him. Either your soul has absorbed his without incident, or his is securely contained within you, out of reach of your own. I hope and believe the latter to be true. And I believe the container to be your scar.”

There was an uncomfortable silence as they each took in Dumbledore's words. Harry's hand raised, trembling, to the mark in question.

“Then to safely destroy the horcruxes it has to be Harry who does it? He has to have five sevenths of Voldemort's soul in him before he can destroy Voldemort himself?” Ron asked in horror.

“It is not even that simple, Ron. The five sevenths of Voldemorts' soul must be entirely destroyed before Voldemort is challenged, or it will be simply as it was before; his body will die and the last soul fragment will inhabit Harry.”

“So I can kill myself, or become him? Those are my post-Hogwarts career options? So much for being an auror,” Harry laughed bitterly, but his pulse was racing so fast he felt sure his heart would explode. The thought of having so much of Voldemort's twisted soul inside him… `That's when you die, idiot…' his brain supplied. `After the last bit is inside you. You take him with you, and he will never hurt anyone again.'

Hermione's clear voice rang out. “We talked about that, Professor, Harry and Ron and I, and we have an idea. What you say changes the numbers a bit, but not the theory Do you think that it might be possible for Harry to use Voldemort's death to make a horcrux himself and remove the pieces of his soul to something that can be destroyed?”

There was a moments silence in the office and all their eyes traveled to Dumbledore's painted ones.

“I knew,” he said at last, “that there was a reason you were born to two unsuspecting muggles at exactly the right moment, Hermione. I thought at first that you and Ron were meant to reinforce for Harry the goodness of human nature and the love of friendship when he was faced with a future so bleak. I see now that I was wrong once again, and you are both indeed quite more then just his friends.”

“Er… does that mean yes, or no?” asked Ron.

“It means possibly. It is a wonderful idea, although ultimately destroying six sevenths of Voldemort's soul will still exert a powerful force. The universe was created in balance and always seeks it; when the denseness of his evil is destroyed a likewise measure may well be claimed of something innocent. In other words, Ron, much like my hand with that smaller portion, something will have to go boom.”

“Oh,” said Ron in an uncomfortably small voice. “Boom.”

Brilliant.

Hee. Giraffe.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 02:21:51 GMT

You Were a Giraffe

You are a high achiever - able to reach things others can't.

A great communicator, you are good at getting past superficialities.

What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

Your 2005 Song Is

Mr. Brightside by The Killers

"It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss"

Let's just say you're happy to be done with 2005!

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

Oddly true..

Random Quizzes.

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 06:00:45 GMT

Your Birthdate: August 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.
You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.
Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.
You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress.

Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years

Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities

Your power color: Crimson red

Your power symbol: Snowflake

Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
[Damn this is so true.]

How Are You In Love?

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom

What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.

Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...

But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.

You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

And done for now.
I miss my friends...

Merrroooww.

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 05:59:28 GMT

Goetze, Rebecca
English, Period 4
December 17, 2005

Native American Poetry

Respect is brightly shinning through every move the Native Americans make; whether it is weaving a web or hunting down game for dinner. The Native Americans have shown respect to everything, from their homes to their families to their food. Although, the most prominent entity that gets their highest respect is nature. In both poems, “Song of the Sky Loom” and “Sun, my Relative”, Native Americans voice their strong respect for nature in two different ways.

Each poem shows respect, but not in the same way. In ‘Song of the Sky Loom’, it shows one type of relationship between Native Americans and nature.
“O our Mother the Earth, O our Father the Sky
…We bring you gifts you love.
Then weave for us a garment of brightness.”
The Tewa Indians appeal to the ‘parents’ of nature to help them with their lives. They respect nature and treat them as if nature was their own family. The relationship between the Indians and nature is as one of a child’s and a parent’s; full of admiration and awe. In contrast, the poem “Sun, my Relative” shows a different type of respect.
“Sun, my relative
Be good coming out
Do something good for us”
The respect from the Havasupai Tribe is more of a friendly relationship, rather than the more worshiping tone of “Song of the Sky Loom”. Instead of offering gifts, the Havasupai Indians seem to demand that the Sun help them.